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Beginnings...

Don't kid yourself

Being adopted starts with why
Searching for birth family starts with why
The whys are endless
little seeds planted in the adopted child
watered early and often
growing into complicated thickets
and tangled branches of family and
"family"


It is my hope to explore some of the whys
to examine the dance of nature and nurture
to provide context for those who have none


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